Showing posts with label myself. Show all posts
Showing posts with label myself. Show all posts

Friday, December 03, 2010

She Said...

最近突然碰见我的前女友(也算是前未婚妻).
真的想不到會在那個情況下碰到她.
想躲開他都躲不了.

已經過了六年, 她还是没有设么变.
还是一样那么的瘦, 那么的美, 只是样子看起来很累.
应该工作的压力.

我们在附近的 mamak 坐下.
面对他真的超不自在.
不知道该说设么.
我们坐下已经有一分钟, 但两人都是静静的不说话.
我假装在打短信.

她说了第一句话,

"你还好吗?"


之后我们开始聊很多话题.
全都关于这六年大家在做的事情.
过了一个小时后,话题多开始少了, 我都是在听多过讲.

突然,她说了我们在一起的时,真的很快乐, 很有幸福的感觉.
我听到了她说这句话, 脑里一片空白.
不知道该说设么. 她看着我的时候,她的眼神突然变了.
好像想暗示某个事情.
虽然她是笑这说,但表情和神突是悲伤.
我都觉得很不自在,然后就想借口要离开.

离开前,她问我还有机会在见面吗.
我就说了一句很不该说的话.

"我希望你能够忘记了过去,
好好的想你的未来计划.
你会遭到一位好男人可以比我给的幸福和快乐."


说完了,我就立刻走了.
在那个时候我知道我已经说错话.
真的不该说出口.
我已经伤了她的心, 这句话会让她更加伤心.

后来, 想了又想,不说多说了.
改变不到了.
希望她可以醒来, 别再活在过去.
这六年来, 她没有再谈恋爱.
她家人非常担心她的情况.
但是我也不能做什么.
担心她会想我还给大家"机会".

我知道我好残忍, 说分就分.
都没有给她理由,就这样的分手.
我不能告诉她应为这和她爸爸有关.

自能藏在心里, 只是我知, 她爸爸知和天知.
我已经打算要把这个理由不能告诉任何人.


所以我只能一个人受苦, 在心里祝福她可以找到她的幸福.
米歇尔, 对不起 !



JJ 林俊傑 - 她说 She Says

她说

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Sexy Panda

Hi Peep !!! Long time no update..
Busy with work and badminton activities...
Looking forward for next update.. LMAO

Sexy Panda

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

frustration

frustration day...

Yesterday morning during /m/ been shouted for nothing...
Don't the people learn to give other people a chance to talk instead of "jump queue" in the half-way of conversation...
This is a disrespect act to others...
Everyone is stress and having full of workload, is not just YOU alone...
So, please respect others right of speaking out...

This morning, "someone" show me his dulan-ness face...
Rules is rules, protocol is protocol, procedure is procedure...
You never learned from your previous mistake...
Is not about who's going to take responsible...
Is about to get the thing done without any problem...
When problem come, it will be YOU and me who going to answer...
In the end, everyone effort will be waste...
Think of others as well...
And again... DON'T FUCKING SHOUT AT ME !!
Nobody like to shout at or to be shout...

Thursday, December 31, 2009

New Year 2010 Resolution !!

Here is my new year resoultions (not sure i shall post it or not)


  • Get myself a new car. Current car can categorized as junk ledy T_T
  • Get a new lappie for myself. It's hard to get online when I'm at home as using roomie's one.
  • Change a new phone. Perhaps either Iphone or Blueberry. Hope that my current company is promising one (this one a bit doubt). Increment of salary will be good !
  • Improve my badminton skill so that I can compete with above average or Intermediate level. Hope to participate some tournaments.
  • More saving more saving ! T_T
  • Less smoking (price increasing again! damnit) lmao!
  • To start plan my house buying plan. At least enough money by end of 2010 for deposit.
  • To change of my lifestyle from appearance to routine or anything. Trying to improve myself
  • If fate come, I don't mind to leave Single's Club ! ROFLMAO
  • Bought a DSLR for myself.
  • Start blog frequently !! hahahahaha


This is for 2010 for now. If there is anything come out of my mind, I shall revise it =D

Goodbye 2009 and Welcome 2010
Happy New Year !!!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

2009 gonna end....

Without realizing the time pass so fast, 2009 soon gonna reach the end and a new year is coming. There is so much thing happen in this pass 1 year. From sad to happy, low to high and some in other way. 3 days on countdown till a new beginning reaching. It's time to start thinking my coming new year resolution! =XD




Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Christmas



I would like to wish everyone

Merry Christmas
&
Happy New Year








歌手名:范晓萱
专辑名:
词:许常德
曲:季忠平

好冷
雪已经积的那么深
Merry Christmas to you
我深爱的人
好冷
整个冬天在你家门
Are you my snow man
我痴痴 痴痴的等
雪 一片一片一片一片
拼出你我的缘份
我的爱 因你而生
你的手摸出我的心疼
雪 一片一片一片一片
在天空静静缤纷
眼看春天 就要来了
而我也将 也将不再生存
好冷
雪已经积的那么深
Merry Christmas to you
我深爱的人
好冷
整个冬天在你家门
Are you my snow man
我痴痴 痴痴的等
雪 一片一片一片一片
拼出你我的缘份
我的爱 因你而生
你的手摸出我的心疼
雪 一片一片一片一片
在天空静静缤纷
眼看春天 就要来了
而我也将 也将不再生存
雪 一片一片一片一片
拼出你我的缘份
我的爱 因你而生
你的手摸出我的心疼
雪 一片一片一片一片
在天空静静缤纷
眼看春天 就要来了

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Bad Week.......

It's a bad bad week....

Case 1

Vin is an Account Manager (AM) in my company. He's a nice guy BUT there way he do things are quite messy. It's all start with a job of doing packaging box. I was his Account Executive (AE) who assist him servicing the account. Vin need to brief me everything include costing, quotation, and design that the client require. It's very important to give a correct creative brief to me and Shin, the designer so that it's match with the client require. Channel of communication is very important. Vin is quite messy and I think he don't even know what the client want. The briefing that he gave to the Shin and me are not detail enough. Shin don't even know how to do work cos she don't understand the concept design the client want. Vin is well-known in the company for this messy attitude on doing work and most of the designer doesn't like him. His work are quite rush & so-called urgent and he always provide insufficient & incorrect information. So, the design keep change and change. End up, Shin so fed up and complain to her senior and Production Manager. Things doesn't good when this incident been spread out and the management "lecture" Vin and me for this. Excuse me !! I just accept this job half-way and I don't even know what and how he deal with the client. Shin and the rest understand it was not my fault cos they know Vin well. Last 2 days, the senior design and production manager complain and "shoot" Vin. I don't know what their conversation is about. Right after that, Vin with a angry look walked up pack his thing and told his manager that he go out do meet client. Actually, I think he doesn't feel to stay anymore longer in the office. In the company, with such a lot of "political" issue, I had no choice to be more self-fish to protect myself. I've been telling Vin to be more careful and make sure everything follow procedure and the most important is to provide a very detail information on every job during briefing. If this effect me, I had no choice to lodge a complain to his manager. I hope he will be more "smart" in future.

Case 2

Yesterday, one of my Accout Manager, Jen had been terminated from the company. It's was order from headquater. She kinda like Vin. But her problem worst. Most of the job she pitch were lost. The manager try to hold and extend her service longer so that the company have time to hire new people. But, emailed was send to the manager to terminate her service in the company immediatelly. It's was a sad scenario as terminating an employee wasn't fun at all. The manager were "stunned" and doesn't know how to tell Jen. In the end, order is order and he had to tell Jen whether like or not. Supposingly, she should be terminated last month but the manager beg the headquater to extend the termination. She were terminated at 5pm and were requested to pack her stuff and leave the company. Hopefully, she will get a better job soon.

Case 3

Today were the last day for my Project Manager, Nicole in KL branch. She will be resume back her position in headquater at Singapore. Nicole treat everyone every nice and she seldom lost her temper. When I was first in this company, she thought me a lot of thing especially my job scope. Sometimes, if I did something wrong, she will tell me nicely in stead of bringing it out to the meeting or give a official email. Of cos, sometimes, an official email need to be done depend on situation. Besides, she is very friendly to everybody and always smile. According to my General Manager, Yen, she is very helpful in the company. If one day without her, the company will be chaos and messy. I'm sure I will be miss her and wish her the best in the future. (P/s: Anyway, I still can see her in Google Chat.. lol)

Beside, there is another bad news. One of the senior designer gonna to resign and leave the company end of this month. The company haven't hire any people to replace them and the workload start to coming. In coming next few months will be our peak season. *Sigh*

Random Case

Clans and political in office is very usual. It can't be avoid as we all are human being. I don't choose whom I should stand but on my own self. I want to do my work properly and I don't wish to be belong to the "trouble" clan. I know who are very capable people. Even though they might be one of the "hate" list, but if it a job to me then I will do. Please, to those trouble group people, if you're not capable enough don't complain and gossip too much. Do your own stuff and if not satisfied go complain to the GM or headquater. Don't fucking create chaos and problem. Fuck!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009



For somehow and unknown reason, I'm feeling blue today........
This morning I've been woke up by a dream...
Wasn't sure it's a nightmare or not...
But definitely is not a good one...
It's seem like a prophecy..
and it's telling me something...
Amazingly, I couldn't remember anything of my dream... *dengzzzz*




Recently, my daily routine including my sleeping time seem to "almost" back to normal...
Yeah, I started to sleep after 10pm and wake up at 7 am the next morning...
I no longer a "vampire" who sleep in the morning and stay awake in the middle of midnight...
Hahaha.... good thing I suppose...

Thing in office is as usual. Start to have some workload coming in for me. This morning there is a bit of "heat" during meeting. Arguing about the pricing and etc etc. Well, not my problem. So, I don't really bother. My GM asked me to design a greeting e-card for coming Hari Raya. We got a lot of designers in company, can't it be them to do it. My brain a bit slow nowadays due to less doing design. Don't know how to come out a design now. Anyway, browse through the website to seek some idea. Hopefully, I can come out with something. =.="

Almost lunch time and I feeling darn sleepy... Browsing thru facebook & blogs and awaiting 12.30pm!!!

Monday, April 20, 2009

hot.....

the weather so freaking hot !!

haloha... long time didn't update here...
anyway, just to report that I'm still alive...
muahahaha!

So, anyone miss me? ( I guess the answer is no! =P )

Friday, March 20, 2009

another month had pass...

without realize, times fly away so fast...
it's almost end of march...
my emo-ness getting serious day by day...
i almost lost count how long it had pass...
going through the time...
which i had to face a lot of stress, problem & failure...
is ain't an easy thing...
but i will strive on...
even though the hope is small...
or even getting lesser by now...
i am who i am is...
you are who you are is...


李聖傑 - 靠近

走在人擠人的走道  我問了自己
沒有愛情的人是否會長命
那些電影常常讓人感覺甜蜜
但是我  不相信

坐在沒有人的角落  我又問自己
究竟應該繼續還是該放棄
沒有人能了解我現在的心情
想看你 想躲你  難以決定

每當我想靠近  你總會裝冷靜
眼看你的表情  彷彿己經說明
我只想要證明  我們這段愛情
也許在你眼裡  它只是個遊戲

我只想要靠近  也很想要抱緊
回想到那過去  和現在新的你
我還想要參與  你的生活點滴
只要你肯相信  我一定會陪你走下去

能不能夠讓我再說'我愛你'
還是你己不想聽
能不能夠把你徹底的忘~記~
我是真的搞不清~

每當我想靠近  你總會裝冷靜
眼看你的表情  彷彿己經說明
我只想要證明  我們這段愛情
也許在你眼裡  它只是個遊戲

我只想要靠近  也很想要抱緊
回想到那過去  和現在新的你
我還想要參與  你的生活點滴
只要你肯相信  我一定會陪你走下去

只要你再相信  我們會緊緊地  靠在一起

Thursday, March 05, 2009

this is what i wan to said...

is all inside this song..
each and every single words of this song lyrics..
is those i wan to tell you..



Song Title : 別說我的眼淚你無所謂

一个人在这个夜里
孤单得难以入睡
真的 想找个人来陪
不愿意一个人喝醉
醉了以后就会流泪
数着你给的伤悲
为什么 你总让我憔悴
别说我的眼泪你无所谓

# 看我流泪 你头也不回
哭过了 泪干了 心变成灰
我想要的美 你还不想给
伤了的 我的心 怎去面对
爱给了你我不后悔
只希望你给我一次机会
让我去追让我去飞
毕竟爱过的心需要安慰
需要你安慰

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

faith

without realize that is march already...
it's been a year then i had return to kl..
things going very decent for this whole year...
nothing much happening activity around...
every day the same routine...
sleep, work, eat and online...
of cos, occasionally went out gathering...
still with same old gang of friends...
and meeting some of new friends...
it's wasn't a good year...
but i still believe and looking things at the brighter side...
perhaps is my destiny to go through this...
for that, i wouldn't blame myself or anyone else...
hoping i will find my path...
hoping the sunshine will come soon...

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

still waiting........

To her,

i'm still waiting...
day by day pass...
is been weeks since the last...
i almost lost count...
days i've been waiting...

just to let u know,
i'm still waiting...


等待着你 Deng Dài Zhe Ni (Original Thai Song translate and sing in mandarin)

你(nǐ) 看(kàn) 见(jiàn) 我(wǒ) 吗(ma)?
Do you see me?
我(wǒ) 望(wàng) 着(zhe) 你(nǐ) 的(de) 侧(cè) 影(yǐng)
My hope is just to see your profile.
你(nǐ) 可(kě) 看(kàn) 到(dào) 我(wǒ) 深(shēn) 情(qíng) 爱(ài) 着(zhe) 你(nǐ)
For you to see my love for you.

我(wǒ) 心(xīn) 中(zhōng) 呼(hū) 喊(hǎn)

My heart is shouting
我(wǒ) 最(zuì) 疼(téng) 惜(xī) 的(de) 名(míng) 字(zì)
the name of person I love most.
你(nǐ) 听(tīng) 到(dào) 我(wǒ) 心(xīn) 的(de) 呼(hū) 唤(huàn) 吗(ma)?
Do you hear the sound form my heart?

(*)
我(wǒ) 用(yòng) 心(xīn) 地(dì) 诉(sù) 说(shuō) 我(wǒ) 爱(ài) 你(nǐ)
I use my heart to say "I love you.",
清(qīng) 晰(xī) 地(dì) 说(shuō) 我(wǒ) 爱(ài) 你(nǐ)
use my understanding to tell "I love you"
聆(líng) 听(tīng) 你(nǐ) 那(nà) 无(wú) 声(shēng) 的(de) 侧(cè) 影(yǐng)
and listen respectfully to your slient profile,
感(gǎn) 受(shòu) 你(nǐ), 等(děng) 待(dài) 着(zhe) 你(nǐ)
feel you, waiting for you.

我(wǒ) 用(yòng) 心(xīn) 看(kàn) 你(nǐ) 唤(huàn) 你(nǐ)
I use my heart to watch you to turn yourself,
等(děng) 着(zhe) 你(nǐ) 的(de) 身(shēn) 影(yǐng) 向(xiàng) 我(wǒ) 走(zǒu) 来(lái)
waiting for you to walk towards me,
期(qī) 待(dài) 着(zhe) 有(yǒu) 一(yī) 天(tiān) 你(nǐ) 会(huì) 看(kàn) 到(dào) 我(wǒ)
for time bringing a day which you can see me.
我(wǒ) 用(yòng) 心(xīn) 看(kàn) 你(nǐ), 我(wǒ) 爱(ài) 你(nǐ)
I use my heart to see you, "I love you."

你(nǐ) 听(tīng) 见(jiàn) 我(wǒ) 吗(ma)?
Do you hear me?
看(kàn) 见(jiàn) 我(wǒ) 的(de) 存(cún) 在(zài) 吗(ma)?
Do you see me?
你(nǐ) 可(kě) 知(zhī) 道(dào) 我(wǒ) 深(shēn) 情(qíng) 等(děng) 你(nǐ) 爱(ài)
Do you know my love which is waiting to love you?

我(wǒ) 心(xīn) 中(zhōng) 渴(kě) 望(wàng)
My heart desires
专(zhuān) 注(zhù) 深(shēn) 情(qíng) 的(de) 双(shuāng) 眼(yǎn)
and absorbs in loveful eye
温(wēn) 暖(nuǎn) 我(wǒ) 寂(jì) 寞(mò) 冰(bīng) 冷(lěng) 心(xīn) 情(qíng)
which warm my cold and lonely heart.

(*)

p/s: good luck in your exam =)

Sunday, February 22, 2009

You Are Not Here....

dedicate to someone who i miss so much but yet get to see u...
dedication to someone who i love so much but yet to love me...
dedication to someone who is everything to me...



王力宏-你不在

Thursday, February 19, 2009

emptyness.....

I feel so EMPTY right now.........
i feel my mind empty
i feel my hand empty
i feel my pocket empty
i feel my heart empty
i feel my life empty

i wish to fill my mind with knowledge
i wish to fill my hand with touch
i wish to fill my hand with money
i wish to fill my heart with the one i love
i wish to fill my life with happiness

Monday, February 16, 2009

is so pain....

i feel the pain...
i feel the sorrow...
i feel the emoness...
i feel the burden...
but why it's has to be like that...
we always have choices...
only u can change all of this..
so, let it go...
open ur heart...
open ur eye...
and see beyond it...
there is another brighter future awaiting u...
i will share ur pain...
i will out-turn ur sorrow...
i will ease ur emoness
i will carry ur burden...
for you, I WILL....

Sunday, February 15, 2009

sorry

i'm so sorry...
sorry for couldn't spend a valentine with you...
sorry for threaten you a bit cold recently...
is not that i want to...
is just that, i feel i'm pushing u too much...
so, i'm giving u some space to "breath"...
i wan you to know that...
i'm still waiting for you...
i miss you...
i love you...


Saturday, February 14, 2009

Valentine's Day

It's Valentine's Day today !! Times really pass so fast. A few weeks ago, it was Chinese New Year and now here u go Valentine's Day. Been outstation this few days. Went to Sabak Bernam for some works. Driving on and off KL- Sabak Bernam. Every day at least 200km driving. Is tired but have to bare with it. Anyhow, wishing someone I love, my dear reader, blogger and friends...



♥♥♥♥♥A Happy Valentine's Day ♥♥♥♥♥


Thursday, February 12, 2009

feeeling blues...

It's had been "blue-ish" in my life for the past few days...
My heart & mind were surrounded by the "blue-ish" emo feeling...
No matter is bout works or my life...
I can feel that my world is turning dark day by day...
As if like there is no more sunshine in my life...
What will happen to me if those day arrive...
Will I'll be high self-esteem like before...
Will I'll be optimistic like before...
Will I'll be laughing like before...
Or Will I'll be the same like before...
Nobody will know...
`Cos the future stay uncertain...
One day, deVince will disappear from his own world...
To nowhere that he himself don't even know where...



by deVince


p/s: No idea what I crap all this... I myself also don't understand what I'm writing...

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

emo emo emo

feeling so bitter + sour right now...
but it's not the end of it...
and I shall work hard on it...
i'm waiting for you..................